Found a cd from high school.

If I raise my hands, so weak and thin and frail, will you reveal the light of mercy in your eyes?...If I cry to you faintly will my feeble whisper fail? Or will it find it's way to a reply? Cuz now that I'm exhausted, I think I'm willing to admit, that I've spent all my resistance on someone I can't resist...

Ok...here's what I'm saying, I raise my hands in surrender today, ok....here I will stay, hands in the air saying 'have thine own way' "

Some really awesome words from old school "The Waiting".

This can't be long, Kandia just got back from over six weeks in China and I have give her a call to see how awesome it was...

And I will be at Starbucks at exactly 5:30 in the am tomorrow, I just feel so sorry for me. That is a completely irrational hour for any human being to be awake, much less making lattes.

So...that's it.
~Ica

It's amazing how exotic Wisconsin can be.

So, sometimes you have to totally forget about yourself and focus completely on another/other person/peoples lives and situations. This almost always turns out for the good. It is so hard to do though....we just aren't naturally inclined to forget about ourselves. I hate that about me, and human nature. Do you ever have those moments when you know that you have truly sacrificed for someone else? Whether it be time, money, conversation, our own agenda, to truly let go of whatever we think is important and just do or be for another person? Man, I really want to have those moments more often... "Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others..."
Still reading a little Brian Mclaren....This guys is amazing...you all should read his books if you get a chance. I took a class my junior year of college on Evangelism and Discipleship, and we read his book "More Ready than You Realize: Evangelism as a Dance in the Postmodern Matrix". He has the most amazing insights into understanding the emerging culture, and how the church fits into the whole picture. Right now I am reading a book he wrote almost entirely as a converstaion between two people, hashing out postmodernism and the spiritual journey. Really poignant, really interesting.

The Holidays are coming...at Starbucks at least...my assistant manager has already had wayyy too much eggnog...and the cranberry bliss bar? Can I just say, bliss?

Road trip this weekend...to the ever exotic location of, drumroll please.............Millwaukee?
Well, I'm excited, anyway.

~Ica

Will you be my friend?

Today I did a cool thing. Keep in mind I am a self-professed coffee nerd. Today, me and a nd some friends roasted our own coffee beans over a fire, in genuine Ethiopian coffee farmer style. Then we mashed them up and brewed them in a clay pot over the fire, and drank the coffee. Best coffee ever, man.....I know, I know...I am aware that this is only cool to real, genuiune coffee nerds. That's what my mother said when I tried to tell her how cool it was.

So, I was out walking in this Seattle-esque weather we are having, and just loving every minute of it....I should probably go live in the Northwest, though I am truly a New Englander at heart....and yet, here I am in Kansas. Life is funny.
I need to get away though. This is the longest I have been in any one city for a very long time...and I am about to go nuts. I begged and pleaded and pretty much made a fool of myself at work, and they let me have next weekend off. I'm going somewhere, somewhere else, that is.

I have been thinking about how the older I get, the harder it is to make good friends. And I think I have figured out why: It's because there is so much more background to cover as life goes on. For instance, the best friends in my life right now are those from high school, and those I met at the beginning of college. If I were to meet anyone right now that I wanted to become close friends with, there woud be, like three weeks of uninterrupted conversation required just to understand how the happenings of the past four years have made us who we are. Who has those three weeks, I would like to know....really? If there is anyone...
So, I love you who have seen me though such melodrama, we turned out alright, right?